Friday, December 28, 2007
I started off 2007 year by leaving for Vietnam on January 3rd to bring home our daughter Kennedy. We will start of 2008 by telling Dustin goodbye January 1st. What a difference a year makes.
It seems like Dustin just came home and now in a few days he will go back to continue his training as a Marine. The hard thing this go around is we have no clue when we will see him again. When he was at boot camp we knew we would see him in three months. We know he has around 3 months of training left, then he will find out were he is stationed and by his estimate probably be deployed around June or July. OK time, you can stop now.
Nineteen years today my mom passed away. I was five months pregnant with Dustin. Now with that being said as faithful as I am and as much as I trust the Lord I am me so it goes without saying I have been stressing a little about finding a job and the foundation. So early this morning 6:30 am to be exact I had a dream. In the dream I was upset and this woman came up to me an grabbed my hand. She sat in a chair and I sat at her feet. She was smiling and so radiant. She was trying to tell me something. She had something in her hand and she wanted me to listen. She kept saying see, isn't it wonderful? But what impressed me most was the fragrance she was wearing. In my dream I could smell it so clearly and it was so familiar. Then Mike woke me up! I could still smell the fragrance and I realized it was White Shoulders! The only perfume my mom ever wore! I didn't even realize what today was until I spoke to my sister. I think my mom came to me in my dreams to let me know everything is going to be just fine. Thanks mom. And most of all thank you God for knowing how to always get my attention!
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Saturday, November 17, 2007
When I left my job to pursue this dream, this purpose God put in my heart I was very hopeful and very faithful. On the days when I felt hopeless and faithless I also felt defeated. That is when I realized how powerful these two words are. They are my kryptonite! So I made a decision to never, ever be hopeless or faithless again. With them I can do anything. God stands by the faithful.
When God puts a dream/ purpose in your heart He does so for a reason. He never said it would be easy, but He did say has long as you stayed faithful and have hope these dreams will become real. It is up to you. If you stay faithful and hopeful through not only the good but also the bad and trying times God will bless you. If you just want to hang it up and not try then your dreams will never become a reality. What blessing you will miss out on! We only need the faith of a mustard seed. A mustard seed! Thats it. Do you know how small a mustard seed is? Good grief.
Ok all I can do is speak from my own experience and trust me I have had many. But as long as I have remained faithful, hopeful and persevered God has taken care of me. I am going to write down the words to my favorite song of all time " You are God". It is on Point of Grace new cd HOW YOU LIVE, track 6 then track 7 is also awesome. Oh the whole cd is awesome!
But anyway I sing this song at least once a day because in a way it is a prayer.
When the sun starts to rise and I open my eyes you are good, so good
In the heat of the day with each stone that I lay you are good, so good
With every breath I take in, I'll tell you I'm grateful again
When the moon rises high before each kiss goodnight you are good
When the road starts to turn around each bend I've learned you are good, so good
And when somebodys hands hold me up, helps me stand you are good, so good
With every breath I take in, I will tell you I'm grateful again
Cause it's more than enough just to know I am loved and you are good.
So how can I thank you and what can I bring
What can a poor man lay at the feet of a king
So I'll sing you a love song, Its all that I have
To tell you I'm grateful for holding my life in your hand
When it's dark and your cold and I can't feel my soul you are still good
When the world has gone gray and the rains here to stay you are still good
With every breath I take in, I'll tell you I'm grateful again
And the storm may swell, even then it is well and you are good.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
He needed to know our travel arrangements and to tell me his platoon video was up on the website.
This is awful but I went to the site, found his platoon and couldn't tell which one was him! Even my daughters couldn't tell. Their hats are way down over their eyes and they all have the same look. Anyway we narrowed it down to 3. We even go his senior picture down and tried to compare chins and noses! Mike came home and it took a minute but there he was! 3rd row down 5th from the left (or the one in the middle) and about 40 pounds lighter! It was like getting your referral picture when you adopt. You just keep looking at it over and over. I couldn't download the video so I pulled it up, froze the frame and took a picture of him! A picture I will carry with me for a very long time.
Dustin blew up the motor in his car and we sold it for junk. My sister and I were out there cleaning it out. He loved to go mudding. Man did he! There was mud in the car! I found his Cd's, mud, his rugby jersey, mud, and his cleats and yes more mud. I miss him so much. See right now I know he will be home for at least 10 days after graduation, but after that we have no clue when we will see him again.
I think the hardest part of being a parent is letting go. You wonder if they ever listened to anything you ever said. Do they still pray and seek God for strength and guidance? You pray they make wise decisions, drive safely, be kind and you hope they know how much they are loved and that you would do anything in the world for them. Including lay down your life for them. Then you realize your son is going to be a Marine. He has to have courage and honor to come to this decision. He is willing to lay down his life for his country, our freedom. You see that he is good and brave and strong and you have to let go and continue to pray.
We have three sons and they no longer live at home. They are all great guys with big hearts who adore their little sisters. I can not think of a time after they have spoken to me or Mike that they have not said; on the phone, in person, in front of friends, they will yell it across the room "I love you." I miss the days of baseball, basketball, loud rock music and late night talks. I miss the piles of laundry, empty fridge and their guy humor. Yes, I miss my boys, but I look forward to watching these young men grow. What a blessing they have been, are and always will be. Thank you Michael, Cody and Dustin for being my guys! I love you.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Sunday, November 4, 2007
November is National Adoption Month. We celebrate how our lives have been touched by adoption. We bring awareness to the hundreds of thousand of orphans in the world who are still waiting for their forever families. This year our church is celebrating The Hug Away Foundation. Our prayer is that families who have been called to adopt will not let the financial aspects of adoption stop them from pursuing this wonderful blessing. We hope to raise so much money that we can help families with some of the cost. International, Domestic, it does not matter. We want to help.
Please, please say a prayer for the orphans. Pray we can help lots of them come home to their forever families.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Dustin had some medical issues growing up. Ulcer at 10, tourettes, weight gain (started when the put him on meds for his tourettes.) He would hold in his twitches(tourettes) until he got home and would be so miserable. It was awful. But all along he knew one day he wanted to be a Marine.
He has lost weight, his tourettes is under control. his ulcer is better. Today he wrote this in a letter. He goes to church every Sunday, he really enjoys it and it makes him homesick. When he thinks he can't do something he ask God to get him through it. He said he feels God has His hands on him through all of this. He works out at night on his own to try and improve himself
He believes he was born to do this. I believe him.
I had met a woman whose son had served in the Marine Corp and then signed up again after 9/11. She told me Marines are born. I believe this is Gods plan for Dustin. He knew it, did what it took to make it and in six weeks I will go watch my son as his dream comes true. He will be a Marine.
So what have I learned? That if you want it bad enough you can achieve it despite some obstacles that may be in the way. When God has a plan for your life He will get you there as long as you let Him help you. That a mother can let go and watch her baby boy grow up and do exactly what God has called Him to do. After all he belongs to God.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
This morning I woke up early.The house was quiet and I sat down and had a visit with my Father in heaven. We went through a lot of stuff. The most important word He gave me was that my personality was fine, I need it to do what He lays on my heart but what I need to change is my attitude. What? That was not what I was expecting to hear.
He revealed to me that He made my personality the way it was so I could survive growing up. It was the tool He gave me to make it. Now someone may read this and think "Hey I had a bad childhood or my life stinks, why didn't He give me a personality to survive?" He did. He also gave us a free will. We could let the circumstances rule us or dig deep into our spirit and pull out the gifts He gave us. We make choices.
I felt defeated many times but I would always let my personality take charge and for that I am very grateful. I did not become a Christian until I was 37 years old but I always felt there was something or someone bigger than this life watching over me and whatever or whoever this something was, it was greater and more powerful than I would ever imagine. At the age of 37 I realized it was Jesus Christ. He was always with me, walking beside me, knowing someday I would desire to know Him and have a personal and intimate relationship with Him.
I know someone is also thinking "easy for you!" No it wasn't, not at all. I made a choice to not let the circumstances get the best of me and knew deep in my soul that life COULD be better than this. My life is better, much better and blessed than I could have ever imagined. Now I thank God for the personality He gave me. The attitude needs a little bit of work.
I need to own up. Any problems I have at this time in my life I created. No one else, just me. Gods promise to me is this, if I trust in Him and believe in Him, depend on Him, all my needs, not my wants, my needs will be met.
Sounds good to me, very good.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
I have to remember that God put this dream of HUG AWAY in my heart and as long as I do this in His name it will succeed. It has not been easy but I know it will happen.
A friend gave Dustin a beautiful stand that says Be strong in the Lord. Ephesians 6:10 The day he left I came home and saw it sitting on our tv. He had placed it there before he left so I would see it when I came home. It was his way of saying to his mom "hang in there" and that is what I feel God is saying to me. So for God, Dustin and Hug Away I will hang in there.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
When I left Dillon Int. to begin this ministry I believed God would take care of me. I needed a part time job and hoped to find one as flexible as my job at Dillon had been. I worked at home most of the time and usually only 25 hours a week. I kept putting off job hunting because I just knew God had the perfect job for me.
Last Tuesday there was a job fair and I went to it. There were lots of great companies, but I felt like my job wasn't here. I remembered there had been an ad in the paper for an account manager, part time, flexible. I thought why not. I went into the office and met this cowboy. He was a really nice guy. We hit it off and next thing I know I have a job! 10-15 hours a week making $100 less than I was making. He owns a large janitorial service and I am the account manager. MY job is to make sure the clients are happy. I can work one whole day or a couple hours a day as long as I make contact! A perfect job! He said come to work Monday and we will go meet clients. I was so excited. Saturday I ended up in an ambulance thinking I suffered a heart attack. I was not going to make it to work Monday. I called the gentleman and he asked if I was ok and said whenever your ready to start let me know. Ends up I was in the hospital until Monday night, by the way thank you God it wasn't a heart attack but a spasmatic esophagus.
So I started my job today and it is going to be so awesome. God is good.
Saturday, October 6, 2007
Of course this was Kennedy's first Fair and we thought for sure she would freak out. NOT. She cried when we left but not while we were there. She rode the kiddy rides and loved it.
Saw an older man who asked if "those were my oriental girls" sigh. Yes they are my oriental girls. Sorry we had already been at the fair 5 hours, ate a huge corn dog, a polish sausage and a funnel cake, I just didn't have it in me to explain, correct or even give a dirty look. I just looked at my husband and said "come on babe, time to go home."
Friday, October 5, 2007
I love this saying. It says it all. God loves me. Good, bad, happy or sad, He always loves me. Embrace that thought if you will. Isn't that amazing? Doesn't it give you goosebumps?
No I have not found a job and I have no clue what is going to happen tomorrow, the only thing I am sure of is yesterday, today and forever God loves me. What else do I need?
Let me tell you something. When you have done what you believe God has called you to do, you are stepping into the unknown, the only known is Gods love.
"Whatever you do, do it all to the glory of God. 1 Corinthians 10:31
That is my hearts desire. It should be every person on earths desire. Imagine this world If that was every ones desire.
The Lord is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation. He is my God, and I will praise Him, my father's God, and I will exalt Him. Exodus 15:2
God has called me to do something for Him. He will give me strength and love me.
Everyday, it doesn't matter if it is from reading my bible or a devotional or a conversation or prayer. Every single day I have to make time to remember God. This reminds me He is in control, not me. He will meet my needs and He has a plan for me. I will know that plan ONLY if I am quiet and listen.
I am so not perfect, I mess up on a daily basis but it is that conscious effort of keeping His word in my heart that reminds me I am forgiven, I am loved and He has big plans for my life.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Sunday, September 30, 2007
We are off to a good start. We are starting a change drive through the months of October and November (no I had no clue Steven Curtis Chapman was doing the same thing!) We are asking other churches, businesses, individuals to help out if they feel the "tug." Oh yea the ministry is to offer grants to families who have been called to adopt. My husband and I have been there, done that and are very aware of what a blessing these grants are. We also had a great article in our local newspaper.
There is so much to do! Right now I am the pr person, fundraiser coordinator, I have to find someone to do the logo for nothing person, and anything else you can think of and enjoying every minute of it!
If you could lift this ministry up in prayer that would be so awesome!
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
smart, kind and funny. I can't believe she has been home 8 months. This picture was taken the week she came home. Dad isn't in love is he?
She is still tiny but she has grown 2 inches. She can count and say her ABC's. She says the most beautiful prayers and like Cameron did when she was little it is more like a long conversation, a very long conversation with God. She talks about her day, from me buckling her up in her car seat to playing with Kooper (her future husband) and she always ask God to take care of each of us by name. All 8 of us! She has changed so much in some ways but in others ways she is still that little girl that walked up to me in Ninh Thuan and kissed my cheek the first time I saw her.
I look at those beautiful dark eyes and say Thank you God for choosing us to be her family.
Saturday, September 22, 2007
This morning Mike was out running and I was fixing breakfast for the girls. Mike walks in and he has on his softball shirt. On the front of his shirt is this big bright flaming softball with a scary face and grrrr teeth. Kennedy points to the softball and said "that's mommy!" ouch. Now mind you last week I was Tinkerbell and then Cinderella. Today I am a scary softball!
I admit sometimes I choose to be mad and in a nasty mood. I let satan get in my thoughts and he fills me with doubts and insecurities.
I don't want my kids to look at me and see a scary softball, I mean I am no flying fairy or Cinderella either. I am just a mom trying to walk the walk instead of always talking the talk.
I am trying to be obedient and do God's will in my life. I want to make a difference. I want to stand before God one day and hear Him say "job well done my good and faithful servant."
So if you are reading this I have a request. Pray for me. Pray I stay strong and I keep the attitude of a servants heart. Tell satan to go back to HELL! That there is no room for him around here. I really need to be covered in prayer. If you know me at all I very rarely ask for prayer for myself, but I am now. I will not list all the huge changes going on in my life at once and what needs there are. God knows. Just say a prayer for me. I don't want to look like a scary, flaming, grrr softball anymore or feel like I have been hit with a bat! I want to glorify God.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Last night at yet again 2:00 am I woke up and could not go back to sleep. I turned on the TV and there was the 700 Club. I like this show. Yes I am a Baptist but I look for the truth. Te be honest I have no clue what denomination the 700 club is but they do speak a lot of truth. Last night taught about faith. Faith is a gift. There are lots of Christian's out there without faith. When you believe and you have faith you can move mountains. It was a very good lesson and yet again through scripture God affirmed I am doing what I am suppose to do. The show goes off and I still can not sleep. I open up a journal I have and when I opened it up there was a little card with Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Confirmation. I open up the drawer to my nightstand and there were a stack of little cards with bible verse on them. I pick them up and the first one I see is exactly the same as the one in my journal. coincidence? I think not. I came in to work this morning and the first phone call I receive was from a wonderful adoptive mom wishing me the best on my new journey. She was so supportive. Again confirmation.
When we are stepping out in faith we need these signs to help us along. To confirm this is what we are to do. I hope my faith is always as strong as it is at this moment.
Monday, September 17, 2007
I went to see my youngest sister today. She has had a very tough life. Some of it because of poor choices and the rest because of abusive people.
Let me tell you how this started. I have been trying to reach out to her more so she would feel like someone cared and she had a connection. In the process witnessing to her. She did come over to watch the girls when I had my surgery last week. This is a huge step. Kennedy adored her and she adored Kennedy. Great thing about kids, they love us for who we are. No conditions. Anyway Kennedy and I walk out the front door and I realized my keys were in the house. To make a long 45 minute saga short my husband could sleep through a bomb! Grrrr...... so after 45 minutes of pounding the door, ringing the doorbell and calling I went to the side garage door. AHA! Next to the door was a hatchet. You guessed it. Stand back Kennedy! I chopped the door handle off! I put a lot of thought on how I could get in through that door with minimal damage. Chopping of the knob seemed logical. I get to the door that leads to the kitchen. LOCKED! I hit, I jimmied. Nothing. I was next to tears and besides being mad at Mike for sleeping so hard I was a little concerned about him. I thought he was in a coma or something. I took a deep breath and prayed. I said "God please help me get this door open. You work my hands." I tried the screwdriver very calmly, jiggle here, jiggle there and the door opened! I was like " thank you God!" wow. No one and I mean no one ever tell me that God doesn't listen to our prayers big or small.
So on the way to my sisters I was reliving this moment. I was so grateful. I was thinking to myself "There is no problem to big or small for God." HELLO! Yet another way God got my attention. He knows I am a little nervous about finding a way to make some money when I leave my job. That was HIS way of showing me that He will take care of me. I never, ever lock my keys in the house. EVER!
Gotta go by a new door knob!
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
I have been asking God to give me just one small sign that I am doing the right thing. Asking, praying, thinking, reading. Yes I am a busy, active gal. I don't think my mind ever shuts down.
First sign. A song. The words "be quiet know and wait" rings through my ears and to my heart. He is saying "Elaine, shhhh!" Sorry, Lord. I will turn it off.
Then a phone call. I can't go into the detail's but it was my second sign.
He knows I need to bring in some income so I need to listen to Him on that little situation. A few blogs back I shared a saying I saw that read " Where God Guides, He Will Provide." I guess I will be quiet now.
I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, Go throw yourself into the sea, and it will be done. If you believe you will receive what ever you ask for in prayer. Matthew 21:21-22
Now see this is the third sign, He lead me to this verse.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Sunday, September 2, 2007
" ARE YOU CRAZY?! '' WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?! Good grief what happened to my faith, my hope the last couple of days? Tell me Lord I have not made a huge mistake. Tell me it was you calling me to this ministry and while your at it take these blues away. Oh and if you could find a way for a few thousand dollars to come my way, then I wouldn't have to work. Now the thought of that puts a smile on my face. :)
I know I do this to myself. Deep in my heart I know I am doing what I am suppose to be doing but the human in me is FREAKING OUT!!!!
Ok Elaine lets see here...
God called you to this ministry
God is going to provide you a job, the perfect job for you.
God will meet your needs
You will be blessed
but I am still FREAKING OUT!!!
I hate feeling like this. hate it, hate it, hate it. So satan is having a field day with me right now. One thing I know for sure, this too will pass.
Saturday, September 1, 2007
From day one Pam ( Niki calls her Aunt Pam) has been faithful emailing friends and family with updates on Niki. Pam's family is very close to Niki's family. I know myself and many others look forward to those updates. They give us hope and remind us that Our God is a God of miracles. Pam always ends her updates with the words "with no doubts."
Niki is coming home." Wow that sounds good.
We often ask ourselves why bad things happen? The truth is we don't know why, they just do.
Niki's parents have taught me so much. Their faith has never wavered. They have looked to God for strength and hope. The fact is bad things happen. Do we blame God? Do we vow never to seek Him again? I hope not. Part of life is hanging in there when bad things happen. Looking to God for strength and courage. Leaning on Him when we can't stand it anymore. To persevere.
Niki is coming home. She has long road ahead but for those who love her we have "no doubts" she will be completely healed.
But when he asks, he must beleive and not doubt. James 1:6
Friday, August 31, 2007
I had planned on having all my kids here Monday September 3rd for a little get together before Dustin left for boot camp. Well; news came Dustin was leaving Sunday at 12:00 noon and without going into detail my oldest son was not going to make it. To say I was bummed was an understatement but I just accepted that was the way it was. I did pray for a miracle though. Then they said Dustin was not leaving until Monday at 12. That made me happy but only a miracle would get Michael my oldest here and Jordan our daughter was going to be gone to a church retreat and she would be coming home right after Dustin left. She was bummed that she would not be able to say good bye to her brother. We needed a miracle for sure. Today Dustin came home and said " Mom I have good news, I don't have to leave until Tuesday at 12:00!" I was thrilled; at least Jordan would be here to tell her brother bye. Still no Michael. Well all in Gods timing. I get this call about an hour ago from Michael. He will also be here Monday!!! And he gave God all the credit! That is the other miracle. No one and I mean no one will ever convince me that God does not listen to our prayers. He is an awesome God and I love Him!
Be joyful always; pray continually;give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Jesus Christ. 1 Thesolonians 5: 16-18
Even when life is unfair and we are dealt bad situations because of the poor choices of someone else, God is still there with you. He is our strength, our comfort.
I saw a friend today. She is going through some stuff that she shouldn't have to go through. But because of poor choices made by someone else , she ends up holding the bag so to speak.
She is a remarkable woman. I have always admired her. She has kept on going when many in her situation would have fallen into a pity party. Want to know the difference between her and those who sit in a pity party? God. She doesn't blame Him for anything going wrong in her life and gives Him all the glory and honor for the peace that dwells inside of her and for the strength that keeps her going. I have no doubt she will be just fine.
OK about these signs from God. A sign in front of a church, bumping into a friend at the exact time you both needed to talk, circumstances, a bible verse pops out at you, a dream, the peace deep in your spirit that only God can give you. He will get your attention one way or the other. The deal is you have to know Him and study His word. If you don't you are going to miss the signs.
The Lord will guide you always Isaiah 58:11
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Sunday, August 26, 2007
I am so excited. There is no feeling like the feeling you get when you know without a doubt that you are doing what God has called you to do.
In Joshua 14:8 there is a sentence that says " I however followed the Lord my God wholeheartedly." That is what I want to do. 2 Corinthians 13:5 Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith: test yourselves. Do you not realize that Christ Jesus is in you-unless, of course you fail the test? I would hate to fail that test.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
|Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. Philippians 4:6|
August 22, 2007 around 9:07 a.m. I turned all my worries, concerns, frustrations over to God. That's right He can have them! He wants them, I sure don't.
I am leaving my job. It was a hard decision, but I feel it is time. I am stepping out in faith to pursue a calling God laid on my heart many years ago. So all the worries about finances, the ministry I am starting up, my marriage, kids, my weight, age, staying healthy, my youngest son leaving for the Marines. You name it and I turned it over. So with that being said...............tada!
I decided to get active...I mean like walk/run active. See, I have these great size 10 jeans in my closet. They are faded, have holes in the knees and I love them. I miss them. I am sure they miss me to! We sure did look good together in the day. Well I decided we can look good again. So I went for a walk,a fast walk, then attempted to run, well really it wasn't a run more of a well, not a sprint....hmmm I don't know it was either an extremely fast walk or a very slow run, call it what you want. Any who I tried to step it up and that lasted about 5 seconds. Then I thought God is right here by my side and in Proverbs 4:12 it says When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble. Ok, I can do this.
About a block and a half ahead of me there was a stop sign and I thought to myself; there is your goal, you can run to the stop sign. Here I go, not so fast, I tripped over a speed bump of all things! Good grief. Ok satan funny, very funny. Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. Proverbs 16:3 Off I go and I made it!!!! Glory to God! If my neighbors hadn't been outside I would have done my get jiggy dance & song! Two hands up, praise the Lord! Bring your hands together in prayer. Now satan won't come near you, oh no he won't, he wouldn't dare! That's the song to my jiggy dance. Can you tell I made it up?
So how was your day? :)
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Oooh makes me tremble! Yes, you can be faithful and still be a little nervous. We are human. Hello! the point is to step out in faith. So here's the deal. A couple of years ago God laid on my heart to start an adoption ministry at my church to help families who are lead to adopt with some of the financial burdens. My pastor was very supportive. I found out that it could be a conflict with my work which is an adoption agency. Why you ask? Well it is the fundraising part. So I put A Hug Away on the back burner and felt when God was ready for me to do this full time he would let me know. Well it's time. I felt God saying to me "Elaine how can I do my work in you when you will not step out in faith? You have to trust me completely." That means leaving my job at the agency. October 2nd will be my last day. gulp. I did it. Now I believe God will provide everything I need. One of those things being a part time job and some money to pay off some unwanted debt I have. I have no doubts. The other deal is I am suppose to take my 2 older daughters to Korea. Hmm... we will see. If it is Gods will it will be done.
As I was getting ready to type in my blog I grabbed my bible and it literally opened to Jeremiah 1:5 Before I formed you in the womb I know you, before you were born I set you apart: I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
God has answered many of my prayers and when I look back it amazes me on the many ways He went about it.
The most recent example. I lead an adoption group at my church. It began 21/2 years ago with a bang, but slowly the attendance began to dwindle and there was really only 3 of us that consistently showed up. I no longer felt the desire to lead and after much prayer I decided to let it go and I had a peace about it, but a small part of me felt guilty, a very small part. As if to tell me "Elaine it really is ok to let it go" God sent confirmation through a prayer that a wonderful woman who came to one of our meetings only one time. Mind you this is the only time I have ever met her and she felt compelled to email me. Through a prayer that God laid on her heart to write and send me came the final confirmation and then there was complete and total peace. It was amazing.
Now adoption is my passion and I have no doubt that God will use me to get the word out. But in order to know His will for me I have to stay in His word, stay in prayer and be aware of circumstances and people He puts before me. Did I tell you that the wonderful woman who sent me the prayer is a professional speaker on adoption? Pretty cool.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
My crew will now live in our RV for a week. Yes, all the luxuries of home, laundry, dirty dishes, beds to make, meals to fix and let's not forget trying to go to the bathroom with your knees in your chest!
So where is the vacation part? I mean I have fun with my family and I love spending time with them but I am so exhausted by the time we get back I need to go to work to chill!
The first year we started this we stayed at a nice condo on the beach at Padre Island, now that was a vacation! My sister Jodie and I decided we are going back to the condo deal.
I did find time to do my bible study, that was nice. Wherever you are you should find time for God. That alone time is energizing! Don't take a vacation from God.
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
First and foremost I am a christian. I became a christian at the age of 37. When I became a christian one of my fears was that I would have to change who I was. No more spontaneous outburst of humor, no more laughing out loud, no more stating my opinion. By golly my life would be more disciplined, strict, stern. Oh and my kids would be perfect and my problems would go away. This is when I found out our awesome God does have a sense of humor, after all He gave me one!
So I am married to the best guy in the world his name is Mike and we have 6 children ages 3,8,12,18,21,30. Three sons and three daughters. Our daughters are adopted two from Korea and one from Vietnam. We also have a grandson who is 5 and a granddaughter who is 4. They are each a special gift from God and we can't imagine our life without them. Besides it makes life interesting!
Hmm... where do I start. OK how about with a funny story?! Tonight my 21 year old son Cody called me to tell me his roommates were going to be on a radio station in a battle of the bands. Now this is a station I would normally not listen to but they are nice guys and to show my support I thought I would listen and vote. I kept hitting redial oh about 90 times. I wanted to hang up but kept thinking "what if my vote was like the tie breaker?" So I hang in there and finally the DJ answers and asked for my name, I give her my name thinking why do you need my name? I just wanted to vote. She says "you are my last caller !" and I thing goody I got in just in time and then she says "you won tickets to WOLF MOTHER!" who? I try to sound excited and hang on while she gets my information. She is really nice; ask for my name, address, phone number and then my birthday...wonder what she was thinking cuz it was like okaaay?Right after I hang up my son calls and says " mom what did you think of the band?" I said "I like them and I called to vote and I was the last......."OH MY GOSH MOM!!! YOU WON THE TICKETS TO WOLF MOTHER?"! "yes,I sure did." "OH MY GOSH I HAVE WANTED TO GO TO THAT CONCERT, I LOVE THAT BAND! THANKS MOM!" " Well son, I'm sorry but I am taking your dad." Oh. silence. Gothca! OH MOM YOU ARE THE COOLEST. I LOVE YOU! "Cody, who is WOLF MOTHER?" "Remember mom;I told you they sound like Led Zepplin." Hmmm... I think to myself I loved Led Zepplin back in the day. But he loves Wolf Mother today. Have fun Cody.
Now mind you I listen to jazz, christian and a little rock. I have tried; not often but a few times to win my husband a backyard makeover, a makeover for myself, a grill, trips to Branson and $10,000. But I call a station that I never listen to and win tickets to a band I never heard of. You know what? It was all worth it. After all my son and friend are going to WOLF MOTHER!