God has been moving so much in my life the last few days to be honest it is almost overwhelming. These are the times that if someone ask you "how do you know its God?"you can say "I know,that I know, that I know!" I was born to share my heart so that others would "know" they were not the only ones, not alone, and that we serve a mighty God! So where do I begin?
Lets start with the "will we adopt again?" As I knew I would I began to obsess about it and trying to figure out how we could, if we could and should we if we could! Finally I was humbled to go to God and give Him control. Since then total peace.
Then there is Hug Away. We are not receiving any donations and so the obsession begins! Why? Why wasn't Hug Away being all that I knew it could be. Why were people not donating money? Why this and why that? Again, that still small whisper speaks to my heart and says "Let me know when you are ready to let me step in." Ouch. See, when Hug Away was born I just knew we would be helping so many families. Last year our first year we helped four families and I was happy and so grateful, but I wanted us to help more! If a family needed a grant I wanted to be able to write a check right then. The fact is I should have been taking baby steps all along. But in usual Elaine fashion I went for it all at once. Instead of babying the ministry and helping it along the way I threw it out there and expected mighty miracles from it. So back to God and back to the basics. All along this thought kept coming to my mind "simple is more and baby steps."
So most of you know I love Joyce Meyers. Well, while in this little fog I have not been watching her or really doing my quiet time. But as the fog was lifted I decided to watch her again and have my quiet time. She was speaking on "Winning the Race and Never Giving Up and Taking Action" It was so appropriate and just what I needed. She was explaining the fact that when God lays a dream on someones heart they usually start off running. The fact is we need to learn how to sit, stand, walk and then run. Of course these are metaphors but you get the point, there is a process. Not all callings are going to be big. It could be as simple as blogging and making a difference in one persons life with what you wrote. It could also be as simple and wonderful as our adoption ministry at my church. Through providing awareness and answering questions several families have been called to adopt. Or it could be the fact that you are grateful that a ministry God planted in your heart was able to help four wonderful families bring a child home to their forever family. It can be that simple and that wonderful.
So as I was going over the last few days and basking in His glory God lead me to a very simple verse Hebrews 11:1 " Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." I do not see God but I know He exist and that He loves me and has put a desire in my heart to make a difference. I just need to slow down and enjoy the journey.
One of my favorite verses in the bible is Revelation 3:7-8 What he opens no one can shut and what he shuts no one can open. I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name.
I think I am going to give God back the control of my door!